What really matters…

I’ve come to realize just this week more than ever that if you have your health you truly do have EVERYTHING. While I was at my doctor’s getting my annual pap I mentioned I had been  having heart palpatations on a fairly regular basis, so she suggested I have some tests done to rule out any problems.  She ordered a chest X-ray and an echocardiogram to check my heart and I  also scheduled my annual mammogram for that same day.

When it comes to my health, I am a bit of a hypochondriac-I imagine these irrational scenarios of getting a bad test result and finding out I have a fatal illness, and more.  It’s just the way I am.  I never take my health for granted.  So for the entire week as I waited for my results I stressed over the slim chance of getting abnormal x-ray results back-my big fear is lung cancer. I validate my fears from the fact that I had two pack a day smoking parents, only to grow up and get married to a man who chain smokes pipes and a few cigars a day.  Not to mention, I watched helplessly as my father died of lung cancer at the young age of 52.  No wonder my fears got the best of me.  I prayed often, and asked friends to pray for me too, hoping that I’d be healthy and normal and that all would be okay.  I must drive God absolutely crazy with my worry and requests for something I tend to not be aware I already have.  I did get my results back and all was normal and fine except palpatations were picked up on the echo-which I knew I had anyway, but there isn’t any other heart abnormalities that should suggest I worry.  I believe the palpatations are caused by a combination of perimenopause setting in full time  with an over stimulated heart from too much coffee.  The remedy-limit my caffeine and stress and palpatations will subside.  They already have.  The worry of that week caused my heart to palpatate more, and funny enough after the doctor called with the thumbs up, all was well and returned to normal.  Whew, what a relief!

This heart is okay and riding the menopausal wave of palpatations.

In the week of imagining having a pseudo illness, I thought about how incredible it feels to be given a clean bill of health. I really believe if you have your health you have everything.  The way I see it, being healthy is more important than having lots of money or taking nice vacations and living in a nice house.  Simply put,  if you aren’t healthy none of that stuff is going to do you any good.  If you have your health, your house can fall apart around you and you can stand triumphant in the aftermath knowing you can survive it and anything else that comes along because you are all good on the inside.

Now that I’m getting older I’m really becomming health conscious-making an effort to work at keeping my body healthy for as long as humanly possible.  My plan-eat antioxidant rich foods like blueberries and broccoli, exercise regularily but not too intensly and work full time getting my weight down.  I don’t ever want to get a bad diagnosis if there’s something I can do to prevent it.

Do you tend to be a hypochondriac like me and what do you do to talk yourself out of it?  What kinds of things do you do to keep your health alive?

7 thoughts on “What really matters…”

  1. Wow, it was like reading my story! I am 51 and recently changed my life. I exercise now daily, cardio no less, eat lots of natural, organic veggies and fruit and have “detoxed” off of just about everything including sugar & esp. preservatives. I now bake my own bread, make my own tea concoctions etc. etc. I was also getting palpatations and they have completely gone away since I started this “new life” 3 months ago. CHANGING THE WAY I LIVE was what I needed really badly, losing weight and most importantly taking control of my own ship has changed my life.
    I once heard someone say “Fear is caused because you’re sitting in the passenger seat of your own car, looking out the window, afraid of where you’re going. If the view scares you, try sliding over into the driver’s seat”. Amen to that!
    Great blog and I thoroughly enjoyed your post. Taking control like you’re doing and watch those fear disappear 🙂


    1. Hey Angela, thanks for visiting…it’s so nice to have new ‘faces’ here. What it is it about middle age? Seems like everyone I know looks better, feels better and enjoys this time of life more than they did when they were in their 20’s. I agree it’s better to get proactive and do something that has a positive impact on my health. Of course, we can’t help keep some things away, but being healthy and fit certainly helps battle anything that may negatively impact our health.
      What I find amazing is how my mind (my thoughts and stress) impact my physical body. Just changing my way of looking at things makes my body feel better. Its all in the way you look at things. It’s best not to stress and worry if you can help it. I found that out.

      I enjoyed you visit! Please come back again.


  2. When I became I gramma I realized I wanted to live a long healthy life…..my biggest challange has been the 30 pounds I keep losing and gaining back..so I joined WW….I have lost 31 pounds so far…have vowed to eat more fruits and veggies and am exercising regularly. what a difference in the way I feel. I WILL keep this weight off and its so true, you ARE what you eat!!!! good luck!!!!!!


  3. Thank you so much for sharing!

    The main thing I do is to concentrate on appreciation for, what is enjoyable RIGHT NOW, that keeps me from worrying about, what I don’t have or what I could not have in the future 🙂


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